The Cranking Music of “Who Am I”
if every word from my tongue
be changed to flowerage
as living language I could speak [space 30]secrecy
[space 80]it is as a set of questions
enacts what it says [space 35]violet [space 10]time
dispersed verbs [space 10]no measurement could hold
when is beatific feeling how to make it occur
indeterminacy in each turn language
could not fill w meaning
filled w meaning but spilling over
pooling on the floor where I eat
I cannot
hold onto a word that answers, let’s say,
a question, which deems response, not as
in fact but a duality that we exceed so garnering
language to dispel it. I wish
[space 25]the human being would take on
some of this chore, like, how does one accomplish
the conceptual task? Adjectival scatter back
world from which they came transposed pronouns
male to synonym of et cetera in apparent
shift of shape of universe
worked out the nervous tic of over
explaining myself, self-appointed enemy
of explanation
cannot trust what is made
or comes from a making process
knowledge therefore banished
a dream believed weird to touch
don’t forget
truth is a window
only ever partial
[space 100]and when we came to a spatial space
[space 100]it was lines and hues set against
[space 100]words and their policies
[space 100]one could act an anchor to the world like ‘weird’
[space 100]and another just a diversion, like ‘woman’.
[space 200]a word
[space 200]is unlivable
[space 200]just go out
[space 200]and scream
[space 200]the crisis
[space 200]in each
[space 200]sound
[space 200]be gay
Errorlove
[justify]A flaw. Could there be conceived a more superior opening? An injury to the outwardness of things / a leak in time’s little shell. We are witness not so much to ourselves as to each other, and so it is that we appear in the emotional history of perception. So flush with strata. Awash in taxa. Species defined at the end of its variation. The induvial is but a small remainder. We are given the clean slate of a perfect silhouette. Reality being primordial, we undergo it. Thrown universe, slightly adrift of the outline. Spilt from a thong. An ear turned inwards to the gravitational law of thine own genitals. What disturbs the placid waters of the celestial dish? Politics and the gist of it. Ideas abound and I am divided. The sky is like a melted swatch expanding like the universe towards imperceptible constructions. Perfect for conversation. I recounted my day at work and sort of just whimpered a dying rose into my ice water. We sketched a cosmogony of depth. Found none. Is time a delay? We devise each other in exchanges of that nature although at this conjuncture all the world’s a contract. The self is its continually deferred penalty. Metaphysics builds a house but not a home. Nonetheless you’ve fashioned the boards and planks of my ass into a bed for your hand. How does one move as if foliage? Quivering in rebellion against those that reason duplicating beauty could be anything but a distrust in what is near to the source of what is. This photography of the wind zips us into skin from the organized ocean. My eyes are sewn into this version of seeing. Each to each, till we are all just eaching. For want of perfect explanation, and so it is we are dominated. Identity rents us to each other. And yet for flaw, there is nowhere to appear. The world is complete and unlimited. Unlimited renewal, complete opening. One penis snapping in the wind flagging naught.
Little Ditty
love is the porch
upon which I sit
and ponder the
tree its antinoise
which does not
occur
beauty is supposedly
as a drop of dew
a collection of
repeated elements
dissipating into the dome
whence does the rivulet
enjoy the source
of the arching cypress?
who knew ‘twould
fuck so?
Earth is dropping hints
like “I’m real”
and “love me”